pada suatu sore 2

ada sore yang membuatku jatuh hati

suara burung dan gesekan sapu lidi dengan tanah dan paving. kucing yang berkejaran, menabrak beberapa pot mungil dan naik ke atas genteng-genteng. payung yang terbuka, ditaruh sembarangan di teras rumah dan masih meneteskan sisa-sisa hujan sore itu.
sore yang membuatku jatuh hati

sebotol pulpy orange yang hampir kosong dan kaos oblong basah yang tercampak pada tumpukan pakaian kotor. mataku menyipit mengamati akun facebook ku dan status yang bertaburan tentang hari minggu. itu besok. hari ini banyak yang wisuda, mungkin besok mereka berkencan, lena dalam euforia kelulusan meski tak satu jurusan pun menjanjikan pekerjaan. atau masa depan penuh intan. semua cuma jalinan kerja keras kalau tidak oleh keringat ya oleh otak.
tetap saja sore itu membuatku jatuh hati

suara sepeda motor dicampur alunan musik dari ipod, terkadang terganggu oleh dentingan nimbuzz karena seseorang menyapaku untuk mengajak bicara lewat tulisan. bicara tentang apapun, janji bertemu dengan beberapa teman, sharing waktu luang weekend yang suck bila dilalui sendiri, atau sekedar berbagi tentang gosip baru atau pembicaraan lain.
masih membuatku jatuh hati pada sore itu

meski aku harus menangis sore itu. kebahagiaan yang aneh yang dimiliki oleh orang jatuh hati. semua terbalik, semua tak jelas ataupun semua berada di jalurnya seperti biasa. orang bisa memaknai kebahagiaan dengan apapun. bahkan dengan airmata.
sore itu aku jatuh hati

how i wish

how i wish to be with you
waking up to your sweet face every morning
or find myself wrapping in your arms

how i wish to be with you
find you in the kitchen to prepare our breakfast to hug you from behind
or handing me my morning coffee while i sit on our swing in my pijama
in my favorite spot in your garden where i can see dews of early morning
fresh air

how i wish to be with you
to see twilight on our rooftop
or running down hill in our shirts and trainings
with the matching shoes
then stop ourselves at ice cream kiosk to buy some
not giving a damn to our diet

how i wish to be with you...

sweet talk

we have a sweet talk in the afternoon. starts with you handing me a cup of coffee made by you. then we sit on a very cozy swing and your left arm on my shoulder. you kiss my hair and i close my eyes.
we had a sweet talk in the morning. started with i woke up only to find that youre not there by my side. i heard the clattering sound from the kitchen where finally i found you there. we exchanged good morning and i saw you cooked some breakfast for us. after that we had a sweet conversation in the dining room while we toasted my glass of milk and your cup of coffee.
we'll have a sweet talk by the night. we will sit in front of our tv, you will wait until i finish my game on playstation. i will play it while i sit and lean on you, and i will have your arms surround me while youre drinking your coffee, sometimes you will peck on my cheek and pause my game to deepen our kiss.
let everyday be our sweet moments and most beautiful memories...

parikesit n1nna dan pembicaraan tentang cinta dan selingkuh via ym dengan seorang teman

Sometimes...to do what's right... we must be steady... and give up the things we desire the most... even our dreams.

cinta itu gak penting, kalo untuk alasan yang salah. itu hanya akan menghancurkanmu saat kamu berusaha mempertahankannya. I've tried so hard & got so far, tapi kalo mantan maunya kayak gitu, aku tidak keberatan menjadi orang yang meninggalkannya. cinta saja tidak cukup. setidaknya tidak, untukku.

and i'd rather bleed in searching the truth than living a content lie.

what i feel about tonite

In my white shirt
And unzipped jeans, I
Stare at the midnite ceiling
I close the gap between
A cup of coffee and my lips
Then part it slightly
Now its empty

No guitar, no violin
No sad music
Nor lovely acoustic

I stand so alone
Tall and unbreakable
I seem...

My mind sparing a little moment
To think of u
I hold u so dearly there
Damn, it makes me cry

Trying so hard,
Not to let u go
It hurts me so
Gotta let u go

(It always tough to let go of the past)

la cienega just smiled -ryan adams

"Ah, the nite...here it comes again"
Its on with jeans, the jacket and the shirt
Howd I end up up feeling so bad for such a little girl

And I hold u close in the back of my mind
Feels so good but, damn, it makes me hurt
And I'm too scared to know how I feel about u now

La cienega just smiles..."See u around"
And I hold u close in the back of my mind
And raise my glass coz either way I'm dead
Neither u really help me to sleep anymore
One breaks my body and the other breaks my soul

La cienega just smiles as it waves goodbye
"Ah, the nite...here it comes again"
Its off with the jeans, the jacket and the shirt
Howd I end up feeling so bad
For such a little girl
And I hold u close in the back of my mind
Feels so good but, damn, it makes me hurt

And I'm too scared to know how I feel about u now
How I feel about u now
La cienega just smiles and says, "I'll see u around"

*tonite song, for xapi and ro. Twisted feelings

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Karena saya akan uts di pertengahan puasa dan karena guyonan seorang teman yang bikin saya eneg. Mohon yang bersangkutan tidak komen apa-apa karena liat nama anda saja sudah membuat saya muak.