my gentle, crazy heart

for every atom of my craving i
need to hear sweet words of love from thee

set a drift

there are some beautiful scenes
some bring tears
make me down to knees

break down and cry

never thought id see
moment when you come back to my life
for good

good

never felt this dilemma before
it has taken its tool on me

damn

perjalanan n1nna 2

ada persimpangan yang berusaha kuputuskan jalan mana yang kupilih. begitu emosional, begitu egois, tapi aku tahu aku ingin jalan yang satu ini. untuk kali ini aku ingin memikirkan diriku sendiri.

its wrong, but yet it feels so right.

tuhan, maafkan aku, ya. kali ini aku ingin memilih jalan yang salah. maaf.

back for good -take that

i guess now is time for me to give up
i feel its time
got a picture of u beside me, got ur lipstick mark still on ur coffee cup

got the first of pure emotion, gotta head of shattered dreams
gotta leave it, gotta leave it all behind, now

unawared but underlined, i figure out this story
it wasnt good
but in the corner of my mind i celebrated glory
but that was not to be
in the twist of separation
u excelled at being free
cant u find a little room inside for me ?

whatever i said, whatever i did, i didnt mean it
i just want u back for good
want u back, want u back, want u back for good

whenever im wrong, please tell me this song
then i'll sing it, u'll be right and understood
want u back, want u back, want u back for good

and we'll be together this time is forever
we'll be fighting and forever we will be so complete
in our love we will never be uncovered again

i guess now is time for u come back for good

from the bottom of my broken heart -britney spears

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, still I miss you somehow

[CHORUS:]
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said, "please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart
Through my dreams through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end

[Repeat CHORUS]

You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here

[Repeat CHORUS]

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?

apa yang Tuhan ajarkan

Tuhan mengajarkan padaku bahwa segalanya hanyalah milikNya. Maka, aku tidak takut untuk kehilanganmu. Bagaimana aku bisa merasa kehilangan atas sesuatu yang tak pernah kumiliki ? Sesungguhnya Tuhan mengajarkanku demikian agar aku tak terluka.

wondering

wondering bout you sends a specific pain to my chest
I feel numb to my arm by its ruthness
then I'm gasping for some air of truth
it feels like an ulcer in my stomach
driving me mad by its pain
I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even to wake up from my bed

19 desember

Fujino Shizuru-sama, otanjobi omedeto gozaimasu !

Semoga aku mendapatkan dan dicintai Shizuru ku sendiri. My personal brand of Shizuru. آمِيّنْ... آمِيّنْ... يَا رَ بَّ العَـــالَمِيْن

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